For The First Time

err to my hubby.. 🙂

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Gazing out into the sun
it felt so unreal
to have this feeling inside my heart
burning me up inside
like a children s echo in my heart
that is left dancing on the streets
where everyone else could see
how delighted I am when you’re with me

I am ecstatic and scared
I am forlorn but a bit brave
I cannot help not to quiver then smile
cause you are the wish that I made to the stars.


Have you ever wish for something that hard that you thought it will never came to be? that it’ll never happen and that only a miracle can make it come true.

 Have you ask for any signs? like an answer from up above.. to show you the right way, to guide you, to help you better understand.

 I have asked a simple question, with a very bizarre and twisted play on verbal and action cues as an answer, I even pinpoint the specific timing and date, even the colour of the clothing or the ornament. I knew it’ll be a 80% chance failure, that it wont happen.. because I damn made sure it is that hard that it wont look like a coincidence. It has never happened to me before or maybe to anyone…


I was left confused  for a while, I came to grasp his power, felt his handwork and felt his eye on me. I came to see the people around me lifting the veil of blindness and disillusionment. Letting me know whats real, whats ESSENTIAL.  How could it be so hard? why does it have to be complicated? when love is really simple to begin with.. You just have to give it whole-heartedly, as HE has given us.

 And now as I write this I feel a surge of excitement and horror, of chills with rainbow-colored fantasy, a hodge podge of emotions flowing. I guess I am ready to see this through.. to finally do it, and open the doors once again and let myself fall and be swept away by you.

** this is a poem I made before tying the knot.. supposedly my vow but I forgot to copy it from my wordpress dashboard doh!**



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Nais kong humimlay…

panandalian na maghihintay

makikinig na lamang sa mga yabag

sa maari mong pagbabalik;

ipipikit ang mga mata,

habang luha’y di pa tumitila

inaasam na sana’y sa pag gising ko

sa huli’t huli’y

ika’y muling makapiling.

Tears of 2014

Breathe in, breathe out

let the orbs despair flow

let your heart sank low

make every tears count

as it slowly slide down

allow each hurt to go

like the memories he once bestow

just let yourself gasp for air

as you bid…

your sweet farewell.

15 Hours

15 hours of my day without you
days when its hard
and there’s nothing more that we can do
so I just sit right here and wait for you
and think of the times that weve’d been through

Like when we had our first hello
how you smile and laugh with me so
though a hug and a kiss is what were missing so
dearest in my heart it’s beside you
where I wanna go

And now as the light that has shone your face
greets me back as I finish my day
it left me thinking about the future we face
till you come right here and we meet face to face.

15 hours of my day without you
a hundred 15 hours I would wait
till the day I’ll have forever with you

** dedicated to a friend and her someone, “may you two finally be able to bridge that 15 hours of time difference”